NUMB not DUMB

so now.... I don't care about it all. I don't feel anything weird like before (butterflies in my stomach,as they say). I'm starting to feel numb, careless I think. and its all because of what you're doing. you yourself made me do this okay? In what way...well, I wrote you a really long letter with heart-felt thoughts and words. and what i got in return? "OKAY" see? how could you even cheer me up,or make me feel happy talking with you if you yourself don't know the right things or maybe the "PERFECT" things to say.Maybe, just maybe I'm still young to get into a relationship, its like there's a lot of things i don't understand like, if i get hurt, I'll cry if I feel happy, I'll smile. I'm not being rational at the moment. And its not mature for a relationship, right?

Well I guess, all I have to do is wait for you to realize your true intentions so that we can move on and build a better friendship instead.

xoxo

being inlove at 12: is it possible?

It is a very brave thing to fall in love. You have to be willing to trust somebody else with your whole being and that's very difficult, really difficult and very brave.

How many times do I tell myself that I'll be okay? How many times do I try staying positive? How many times do I have to stay up and contemplate about us and what I'd say to you if you bothered to speak to me again. Too many to count, and you, out of all this, It only takes you once to get into my heart again.

xoxo

Take precaution of the words you speak, words are more powerful than you think.

Recently, i've been busy with... nevermind. And it literally consumes my time, I don't know if it's in a good way or what, but yes, it somehow put a smile on my face.

Anyway, I haven't made an entry that somewhat express what I really feel or thoughts that I wanted to blurt out, and then suddenly, I guess, I was touched by an angel or angels :)))

Their writing inspired me to regain what I was hoping to have on my blog. Words, that best describes the emotions that I feel, paragraphs and sentences that can move my readers (If I have any, anyone? LOL)

To start off; let me introduce myself, again, I'm Patricia to my acquaintances and Patty, Chapstick, Muffin, Cupcake, Fudge and Patmen to my loved ones. I'm a 12 yr old freshie from St. Paul College Makati, Philippines,I see to it that I excel in everything I do, from my classes to my extra-curricular activities (or at least I try to), I enjoy the simplest perks I have right now, but I can also say that life's been extremely good for me, I have my ever supportive and loving family, I have the most beautiful (inside and out) set of friends anyone can hoped for.

My Tita Chops (BTW, did I mention that she's the one who influenced me to have my online journal?)used to say that "young bloods run wild" and she's pertaining to us teens now, well, I'm sorry tita to disappoint you, I'm proud to say, I'm not one of them!

Because my pre-teen year only includes:

-Playing guitar (especially when I feel depressed)
-Writing poems
-Reading
-Drawing and Sketching
-Singing (that's my frustration)
-Dancing (I know I'm good, but soon, I'll be better)
-Non-stop chikahan and camwhoring with friends :)))
-and,Yes, I admit I'm a FACEBOOK addict LOL
*and oh my friends say that I talk too fast when telling a story!!! LOL

And if anyone ask me these questions in the future;

Yes, I'll drink, Occasionally and Moderately. (of course, with people I can trust)
No, I'll never smoke and NEVER do drugs! (that's my NOTE TO SELF)
Yes, I will have a tattoo and a piercing (sabi ni mommy okay na pag 16, just piercing)
Yes, I will have different kinds of friends (good or bad, younger or older, I'll stay still, values intact!)

NOTE: THIS IS MY ONLINE JOURNAL!!! Well, all I can say is words are more powerful than you think. Now, you know me better, right?!

xoxo

DEPP LOVE

I HEART JOHNNY DEPP

XOXO

WEEKEND WARRIORS

patty&renee

xoxo

camera films clashed!

ingredients for a rockin' photo:

1 tsp of black and white film
1 tsp of colored film
1 tsp of fierceness
1 tsp of awesome concept
1 tsp of interesting subject

voila!

A ROCKIN' PHOTO!!!

xoxo

need i say more?

xoxo

good girl, gone rad.

I'LL BE YOUR MIRROR

When you are authentic, some people will love you, some people will hate you, but EVERYONE will watch you!

WHATEVER! At least they're still giving you attention, and you're making them feel something that's better than nothing right!

xoxo

maybe... definitely!

Losing your heart's desire is tragic, but gaining your heart's desire is all you can wish for. So if that's tragic, then give me tragedy!

-p.sawyer

MY ONE and LONELY

xoxo

every song ends...

Every song has a CODA. Whether it fades out or crashes away. Every song ends. Is that any reason not to enjoy the music? The truth is, there is nothing to be afraid of. It's just life.
I'm young and not afraid of rejection. at least I tried.

xoxo

GOD, BLESS THEIR SOULS.

It's raining
really hard outside.
I'm sure heavens crying
for innocent lives.

R.I.P

HIPSTERS!!!

CLAP YOU BASTARD!

posers are not allowed!!!

xoxo

it ain't a fairytale!

I was never a hypocrite about my feelings ever since!

I always mean what i say!
If I don't like you, I ignore you, If I'm Happy, I'm Happy! It shows!
If I'm sad, I'm sad. If I'm jealous, I'm jealous (I say it, and you know it!)
If I'm pissed off, I rant.
And yes, I'm pissed off, who wouldn't be?

YOU ARE INSENSITIVE!

You should have known in the first place what would I feel when you constantly bringing up that F-ing name in all our conversations! Again, I'm not jealous, I'm pissed off!

I know her GAME! She's acting as if she really understands you, and you confide to her everything about our relationship and being the "goody-goody friend", advises you on how to deal with me, right?!

You don't make me feel secured, I know I deserve to be treated better, and I deserve the best! why?

Because:

I always give my best in everything I do.
You know what? How can you say that you truly love me, when even your words do not comfort me.
How can you say that you love me, when you're starting to type my name wrong.
How can you say that you love me, when slowly you start to break your promises.
How can this relationship work, when it's not the both of us, working for it.
I'm always the first one to ask, the one who tries to put up a conversation... Did you ever ask me what I want in a guy, Now, I tell you;

I want someone, who loves me more than I love him.
I want someone, who'll take care of me.
I want someone, who knows what I need, without me telling him.
I want someone, who can make me laugh.
I want someone, who loves his family, and will love my family as well.
I want someone, who's driven and goal oriented as I am.
I don't look much for super good-looks, but I want someone with a (great) fashion sense.
I want someone, who is crazy as I am and who'll enjoy doing crazy things with me... (in the future!)

Maybe, I'm rushing into things and thought that you're that someone (and will be that someone)
Maybe, I'm a fool to believe that you're different.
Maybe, when I'm 18, I can find someone like that. But, for now I guess I'm better off alone.

Don't worry about me, because I know myself, I will be good in no time,I never cried over a spilled milk...

PROMISE!

xoxo

p.s

SERIOUSLY?! DO YOU REALLY WANT HER FACE IN YOUR TECHIE PHONE'S WALL PAPER??? LOL'S :P just asking! haha

long lost sisters.

If you ask me, which celebrity closet i would love to raid; My answer - THE OLSEN TWINS!!! with their TO DIE FOR fashion sense.

xoxo

CAPTURING EVERY SINGLE MOMENTS :D

FUN FUN FUN! today is SUNDAY! yay! i love taking pictures YEAH :-bd its not that obvious huh? oh well today was a BLAST! again :D
XOXO

BEASTLY.

CAN'T WAIT!!!

xoxo

SKINS.

EFFY LOVE!!!

entry inspired via androgynouschops. love their style!

xoxo

FILIPINO and PROUD

REPRESENT!

OO by Up Dharma Down

patty on guitars

chops vox

the muso in us.

xoxo

ANOTHER DAY IN PARADISE

i had a great day today....today was a BLAST!and wicked at the same time.i had so much fun with my girlfriend :D too bad the rest of my beautiful ladies werent there to camwhore and kid around with us :(

xoxo'

DANCE LIKE NOBODY'S WATCHIN'!

Dance like nobody's watching; love like you've never been hurt; sing like nobody's listening; live like it's heaven on earth. Right?!

People that are meant to be together always find their way in the end. So, whatever this feeling I'm having right now, I'll just enjoy it...<3

xoxo

HIDE AND SEEK

I don't like being angry, but sometimes there is a need.

I don't like hating people,I think it breeds disease and ugliness.
I always think there is good in everyone, there are days when I doubt this.
I rarely talk bad about others and only when it's too much and I just have to rant.
I don't lie. When one asks, I tell the truth because I don't believe in hiding things.

xoxo

FRIDAY. I'M IN LOVE!

and tomorrow it's Saturday! I'm gonna be with my best girls, like evah!!!

xoxo